Everyday I am so amazed at how completely blessed my life is. Today especially. I have the most incredible best friend in the entire world, and he is MY husband. He is also the best father to our little guy Maddox. He can get that little boy smiling like no one else can. Trust me I have tried. Not only is he amazing but he is HOT too;)
I love you so much honey, Happy Father's Day!
Love,
Me
I happened upon the Mormon Message below featuring Nie Nie or Stephanie Nelson. I have been following her blog for close to two years now and she is one of the most incredible people that I have had the privileged in knowing, and I don't even know her. Though her blog she bears her soul. She is a beautiful person in every way imaginable and she shows that through each individual post. She is truly a disciple of Christ, and she shows that through her divine dedication to the Gospel. Watch and enjoy her message below, she is truly a mother to be celebrated. I hope to meet her one day to simply thank her for sharing her soul with me. She is beauty.
I am so unbelievably blessed for the life I live and for the people in it. I have such an amazing husband and baby. I truly have something to celebrate this Mother's day. I am blessed in everyway. 
Can you believe that I get to spend everyday with this little guy? I am pretty sure I am the luckiest mom ever! 
Well for those of you who are interested this is how everything went down:) For weeks and weeks I had been talking about how Andrea (Dr Smith, she doesn't know that I secretly call her Andrea when I am upset with her)and I needed to sit down and have a serious chat. Well on Tuesday March 2nd I was desperate. I hadn't slept in I don't know how long and I was definitely uncomfortable. Maybe it was my anxiety maybe it was a twist of fate but when I went in for my routine weekly checkup little did I know that my blood pressure had sky rocketed. Not that that is a good thing but it definitely put the "induction business" on the table. After getting a talk from Andrea about the pro's and con's of induction and the fact that if my blood pressure didn't come down I really wouldn't have a choice and would have to be induced that night. She then said the magic words, that I would be having my little boy either tonight or tomorrow! All at once I became a little overwhelmed. I mean this is what I have been waiting nine long months for right??? Well I think I was in denial of it actually happening. I mean I know I was pregnant but was that really a little baby in there, and not a giant growth or a little holiday weight that I had yet to loose?? Well either way now it was do or die, literally. So we headed over to the hospital.
Once we got to the hospital I had to be hooked up to all sorts of monitors and they preformed a few blood tests and a stress test. Thankfully everything turned out okay and all of my labs came back as normal. Clayton showed up five minutes before I could leave to go home, luckily it wasn't the real thing because he would have missed it! Stupid commute! Anyway because of the risks associated with high blood pressure and the fact that I was definitely ready to have the baby we decided to be induced the next morning!
When we got home that night we tried to get everything ready and not be too nervous/excited. It was so crazy to think that that would be the last night that it was just the two of us. Our entire life was going to change, and we could not wait. We slept fairly well that night considering, I however was up by 6 am and cleaning. Ha ha ha I had to do something with all of my unexpected energy. We;; by the time 9:30 rolled around I was definitely ready to go. Since we had to be at the hospital by 10:00 Clayton agreed. The ride to the hospital was rather quite, I think both of us were in a little bit of shock. We were actually going to have a child, this would be the last time we were really alone together. CRAZY!
We got to the hospital and checked in. After getting situated in our Labor and Delivery room we met our AMAZING nurse Pam. She really was so fantastic. She even came to visit us the next day to see the baby:) Anyway after about a half dozen pokes and a blown up vein from the CNA I was finally hooked up to the pitocen. At this point I was starting to wonder when the "real labor" was going to start. HA I soon found out. I now understand why they kept asking me when I would like my epidural. After turning the pitocen all the way up I was in definite pain. Little did I know that I would still have to wait another half hour for the anesthesiologist. When she got there the contractions were really strong, I could barely sit still while she did it. I definitely think that I have a pretty strong threshold for pain so when I sat there silently with tears running down my cheeks Clayton definitely began to be concerned. But let me tell you that Epidural is a life saver. Why, WHY, WHY would anyone want to have a baby naturally I will never know. That was the best thing ever, and plus whenever it started to wear off I had a nice little button I could push and I would instantly feel better:) So just a word to the wise, dont try and be a hero.....get your epidural early. Not at the last moment like me, I promise you will thank me later:)
After I got the epidural things were fairly good. We watched a lot of Friends, it was rather relaxing actually. At about 8:00 pm I started pushing and an hour later at 9:09 our baby Maddox was born. He was 7lbs and 6oz and 20 inches long. I will never forget the first time I saw his little face. He was silent and completely wide awake and looking around. He was perfect. However since he was such a good little boy and didn't cry all of the nurses and everyone sort of went into panic mode. I guess it is really important for babies to cry at first so the took him and started doing everything possible to get him to cry. As the mom I was indefinite shock. I was so scared I didn't know what was going on, after about a minute and a half they finally got him to cry, and me. I burst into tears. My little boy was okay. He was going to be okay. Sigh. That was definitely the worst part of all of this. Because of our little scare I only got to hold him for a few seconds before they took him to the nursery to make sure he was breathing okay. After getting cleaned up, Maddox was back and we were able to spend the rest of our time together. He was amazing and so cute and he still is. I love him so much and I really cannot imagine my life with out him. He is my little boy and I am his mom.
The funny thing about all of this is that for weeks I had been so nervous about giving birth and really it was not bad at all. Once I got the epidural I could have been in labor forever. It really was not bad. I was definitely lucky. However since everything was so "easy" I didnt ever realize just how much my body was actually working, when i woke up the next morning I felt like I had been hit by a truck ha ha ha.
So how are things now? Perfect! Maddox is great, he wakes up once a night and eats really well. I am definitely lucky! Clayton is the most amazing dad, I could not imagine doing any of this with out him. He is such a huge help!
So I know this is a little late coming, as in we had his two week check up today, but Maddox was born March 3, 2010! He was born at 9:09, 7 lbs 6 oz and 20 inches long! He is absolutely perfect in every way. I will post a more detailed story of the delivery soon but I just wanted to make the announcement!
My days and weeks and hours for that matter are filled with moments that many people would not be proud of yet I am. With a 9 month pregnant body and baby I have learned to laugh at the little things....and cry at the little things. Ha ha ha I thought that you would enjoy how I make it through the day and my little triumphs that I overcome:)
1. After working 6.5 hours a day, do i come home and clean or make dinner? No I have taken to the habit of lying on the couch, of course changing positions ever 2 min to be comfortable, and watching my newly found favorite show "Say Yes to the Dress". I am a wreck...so sue me.
2. Much to Clayton's protest I have gotten used to and rather like the feeling of no makeup. I can rub my eyes whenever I want to:) Sadly this must end with the birth of our child. I need to have pride in my personal appearance. ha.
3. This is one that I am most proud of..... if I can make it through the day without laughing, coughing, sneezing and not peeing my pants at the same time that is a victory.
4. I tend to be rather emotional lately. I never thought I would get the pregnancy crazy gene well according to Clayton it is in full force. You can never really know what is going to come out, for me I find it rather exciting like a play. Clayton is not so excited.
5. I am quickly starting to grow out of my maternity clothes. HA HA HA Pretty soon I am not going to have anything to wear. Baby you better come soon.
6. In regards to #5 I have become prone to wearing the same thing every day when I get home from work. A nice pair of bright pink sweat pants with a dinosaur on them. Clayton hates them, I think he is embarrassed to be seen with me in public when I refuse to change for a Walmart run. What is wrong with my lovely pink sweats and a now skin tight white BYU hoodie? I think I just answered my own question.
7. I am always hungry. I think I have eaten us out of house and home. Every week when I go to the Doctor I am certain she is going to turn to me and give me the "obese talk". I know it is coming one of these days, I see the look she gives me when I get on the scale. judgment. and I thought the Doctors office was a judge free zone.
8. I think I might be in denial. I have packed the baby's hospital bag, yet for some reason I can't pack my own. I am really starting to believe that the baby is just going to show up one day, brought to me by a stork of course, and it will all be over. Then of course there are the times when I think about going to have a sit in at the hospital and refuse to leave until I have a baby. I am guessing this has something to do with #4.
9. Sleep? What exactly is sleep because I have yet to see you in the past nine months. The sad part is, is that once I am comfortable enough to sleep--presently--it is time for my nine thousandth trip to the bathroom. It is a vicious cycle. sleep, potty, eat, sleep, potty, eat. I have become the adult form of my soon to be born baby.
10. With everyone of these numbers and "issues" I have developed with having a baby and being pregnant I have become increasingly more and more grateful for my incredible husband. He is my everything. He takes care of me and loves me even though I have bladder control issues ha ha ha. He is the rock of my life and honestly I would never, could never do this with out him. He is the most amazing man and is the most amazing father. I love you baby cakes.
So all of you baby wishers, 2 trimesterers, and everyone in between this is what you have to look forward to. Honestly I would not change a thing. He is mine and I get to carry him for nine months and for forever. Sometimes you just need a little reminder;)
"Instead of wishing away nine months of pregnancy, I'd have cherished every moment and realized that the wonderment growing inside me was the only chance in life to assist God in a miracle." Erma Bombeck, on life.
So I know I have been absolutely terrible at blogging. Really I have no excuse. Hopefully I still have someone who reads that does not mind my random every six months postings.
I honestly cannot believe that in six weeks I will have a baby boy, that is so crazy. Clayton and I could not be more excited. I however am starting to feel like maybe he should just stay in and I will be pregnant forever. Well no I do not want to be pregnant forever, but I did watch this video on a c-section and a regular birth. Ummm is there a neither option? Can he just magically appear, I would like that please.
Anyway to get my mind off of THAT, here are a couple of things we have gotten so far for our baby boy:)
